just a glimpse

Wednesday, January 25, 2006

random spurts

*disclaimer: i'm slightly emotional right now, so don't take me too seriously. but i still pretty much mean what i say. think what you will.*

  • sometimes i wish i cared more. but sometimes i just don't.
  • can't things just be not messed up sometimes?
  • can people just stop thinking about themselves?
  • i don't like feeling needy.
  • how do you ask for a hug without it being weird?
  • so many things bother me.
  • i bother me.
  • why can't we all just get along?
  • would things be easier if i was a guy?
  • feelings get complicated.
  • girls can be so whack.
  • i wish i could make you feel better.
  • why is there so much talk about marriage lately?
  • sometimes i wish time can just stop so i can catch up.
  • waiting is hard.
  • crushes can be destructive. especially when you're in denial. and when you can't distance yourself anymore. stop convincing yourself it's ok.
  • mom said it best: boys are trouble.
  • you come and you go and you come and you go. can't you just stay forever?
  • there are so many things i wish i was good at.
  • can i really get through life sucking at math?
  • i wish change was easier.
  • i get really sad when my Christian friends seem to be living double lives. sometimes i think i'm one of them.
  • i'm really proud of you boys.
  • i like how you think i'm fun to talk to.
  • wouldn't you like to be encouraged more?
  • i wish you wouldn't be so bitter at life.
  • some people just need to grow up.
  • i want to be better.
  • why have i been blogging so much?
  • tv is the devil.
  • i feel responsible that you don't come to church anymore.
  • will better be the first to sign up for softball :)
  • sometimes i think i'm so easily shaken. sometimes i don't.
  • love is so hard. especially with family.
  • sometimes i wish i was someone else. sometimes i don't.
  • i like how i can talk to people about anything and everything. but sometimes i don't feel like i can at all.
  • it's sad to realise how superficial a friendship developed since childhood as become. it's sad to hear i've been reduced to "we grew up together". i tried. but this is your choice.
  • i need to get my act together.
  • i'd rather not think than not feel.
  • school can be such a pain in the everywhere.
  • it's sad when i think about how the person who has hurt me like i've never been hurt before in my life is a pastor. how do you know when you've forgiven someone?
  • people who try to get into teacher's college as a back up plan piss me off. people who actually end up getting in piss me off even more. don't kids deserve more than that?
  • my mom is my hero.
  • i want to save the world.
  • i want to believe that change can happen.
  • you are more than what you've become.

till next time...take care of yourself and each other.
i mean it.

1 Comments:

Blogger Andrew said...

i think that's enough for a book. give steve jamison a call. i'll be the first to buy a copy =)

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